I Am

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Who am I?
Brown brother painted in white skin
I am… NOT killing other man
Smoking mirror, can’t understand
Call me white but I’m Salvadorian.
Look closer beyond my color
It goes all the way back, before my great-grandfather
I am he who raised my own brother
I am he who was raised by a single mother
My anger is raging like lava.
I am a ocean, I give I take,
I’m calm and mellow but can rage in anger, don’t make no mistake
Who am I?
Hah… I’m the one who asked once, where is my father?

Who am I?
I am alive since 1914, but I was born in 1995
I am papachito, the one full of pride.
Birth named Nixon, ready to strive
Trapped since I was five
Heart in land, body in jail
I am determined, will never fail
I came a long way, made a long trail
Listening to spirits, pursuing their tale
This is what makes me, I make them
No matter what I chose, this is who I am


HASTOBENIXON™

One Love

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For those who fight
With all their might
Not for hate, all for love
Shine the world, like a dove
To those who speak truth
They grow old, but keep their youth
For those who live
Not for today, only for tomorrow, they know how to give
For those who respect
Themselves and others, with those I can connect
One Love

©Nixon Callejas
HASTOBENIXON™

You Are Not Our Mothers

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You are not our mothers
We been weaned from the breast of women for years
Yet we go to you
Wounded, filled with promises we only keep half of the time
Filled with lies for women we use all the time
We made you accustomed to sleepless nights and damp pillows
Made you become accustomed to cold nights waiting for a hero
We expect from you, more than what we give
We want in return, for you to believe
We are different, we can change
Yet we act, oh so strange
Not your fault, its ours
Made you wait for hours
It’s my fault, I admit
Im afraid, can’t commit
I’m sorry is not enough
I know what I did, acted tough
Had you enchanted
Yet I took you for granted
I put you in pain, made you cry
I don’t blame you, for saying bye!

©Nixon Callejas
HASTOBENIXON™

The Smile of a Butterfly

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Would you believe me if I told you I seen a butterfly smile?
Not just any smile, but the one that makes it worthwhile
Not just worthwhile, but worth every single mile
See this butterfly is unique, yet so versatile
This butterfly taught me about the beauty in simplicity
Life is too hard to worry about publicity
Following our hearts and dreams is what it’s all about
This butterfly will go where she goes without a drop of doubt
This butterfly is still young, but filled with maturity
She knows life is hard, discovers it, and keeps her purity
This butterfly makes me feel many things, but only one regret
A regret that I didn’t see her sooner, but we get what we get
And though this butterfly will leave along with the seasons
I wish for her to stay here for my own selfish reasons
But who am I to tell this butterfly to stay?
I want her to discover, but yet I want it my way
Is it because of the way this butterfly makes me feel?
Feelings so strong and so hard to conceal
How could I ask a butterfly to stay because of my feelings?
How could I even tell this butterfly without being too revealing?
You see this butterfly is so unique that it was never here or there
It came by like the wind, and will disappear like a flare
And though these types of butterflies only come once in a while
Would you believe me if I told you I seen a butterfly smile?

©Nixon Callejas
HASTOBENIXON™

The Story In Your Eyes

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The story in your eyes
Pain in your eyes
Pain you disguise
Pain you despise
Tales of demise
Fame you defy
Lies you deny
The story in your eyes
In yours I see mines

The story in your eyes
Love you can’t see
Hate given for free
Passion taken from me
Soul drowned in a sea
Green keeps you in ease
Life stings like bees
Brings you on your knees
May God help us please
The story in your eyes
In yours I see mines

The story in your eyes
I’m the young you
Same path, same view
You’re the young me
Same family
You’re my soul mate
You are my fate
The story in your eyes
In yours I see mines

The story in your eyes
You are my father
Now and forever
You are my mother
Like you, no other
You are my brother
Raised by me and our mother
All for one, one for all
After pain, we stand tall
You are my sista
Heart acts like a twista
I am what you see
You are what I see
The story in your eyes
In yours I see mines

©Nixon Callejas
HASTOBENIXON™

Karma

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Life is a bitch, but so is karma
Revenge is sweet, but it only brings drama
An eye for an eye makes the world blind
We take 2 steps forward and 3 behind
Without vision, revenge we’ll try to find
But we won’t get it, even if the stars are aligned
Life is a bitch, but so is karma
Revenge is sweet, but it only creates trauma

 Karma can be heavy, but so is life
My cuts are deep and I didn’t even use a knife
An eye for an eye makes for a fair fight
Why do we live in a world filled with spite?
The sun is oh so big, and oh so bright
But darkness fallows us and shuts off our light
Karma can be heavy, but so is life
My cuts are deep because Earth is full of strife

 Karma is a vicious cycle, but it gives balance
Our constant interference only adds imbalance
Every action we take comes with weight
We tend to forget that we eat from the same plate
Life would be easier if we learned to wait
But we are only humans and we can’t escape fate
Karma is a vicious cycle, but it gives balance
Our constant interference makes us unbalanced

I’ve only lived for 20 years but I’ve seen, tasted, and experienced the hardships of this planet. It makes me wonder if it’s natural or our entire fault. Maybe it’s nature’s way of adding balance to our imbalance. Or nature’s way of teaching us a lesson. Or this is nature returning the weight that we add on her. Whatever the case may be, love seems like a thing of the past and hate is a thing of tomorrow. We think we killing each other, but we only killing ourselves mentally, physically, and spirituality. I’m optimistic for a better tomorrow, but it gets hard to believe when everyone is up each other’s throat. I guess the lesson from this is to learn to forgive. You are my other me, and I am your other you. So even if I hurt you, I’ll have to carry your weight. So even if you hurt me, you’ll have to carry my weight. So let’s do each other a favor, and not be blinded or else we’ll lose track of our fate…

©Nixon Callejas
HASTOBENIXON™

Strangers

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Strangers…
Crossed paths, it’s destiny
Talking breathlessly
My name is… Yours is…
Nice to meet you miss
Let me get your numero
Let me get yours primero
Here is mine
Hit up my line

The Chase…
Always talking to you
How I feel, I wish you knew
Let me know more of you
Why don’t you come through
Playing question games
Happy to call your name
Lighting up our flame
I hope you feel the same

Honeymoon…
One question, now its we
For you I cross the sea
Even crawl on my knees
Only you put me in ease
Together wherever we go
Wherever my love I’ll show
Baby te amo
No dejes mi mano
Onde estas, te extraño
We are different
They are indifferent
We are unique
They are weak
Us is forever
They is never
We will last
And never look at the past

Comfortable…
What you wanna do
Whatever, nothing is new
Ring Ring, I press ignore
Ring Ring, later im at the store
Lets hangout today
I’m busy, another day
Hey I miss you
Me too, got to go though boo

Tolerance…
It’s almost 2 years
Together facing our fears
Who the hell is that
Why you acting like a brat
You’re annoying me
Oh well I am sorry
I don’t wanna talk
Hah that ain’t a shock
What did you say
Nothing, ugh always your way

Downhill…
One word text
Now I’m vexed
Psh whats next
Feeling perplexed
Don’t talk to me, get away
Okay, not like I wanna stay
Oh yeah one day Ima leave
Why, what you tryna’ conceive?
Now we always fight
Now I can’t see the light
Of the flame we once had
Shit is going bad
What we arguing about?
I don’t know but I’m feeling doubt

Breaking up…
We need our time apart
I can feel it in my heart
It’s for the best
Guess we failed the test
So we are like the rest
This is such a mess

Strangers…
Contact deleted
Feeling defeated
She moved away from me
So fast like 1..2….3
Know nothing about her anymore
My heart aches
make it stop, I implore
I look at what we had
Crying, where did it go bad
I’m sorry for all the pain
I wish things would be the same
Crossed paths, its destiny
Now alone dying breathlessly

©Nixon Callejas
HASTOBENIXON™

What Never Was, Will Never Be

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You can’t miss what was never there
Though it may seem hard to bear
At empty walls we will stare
Filled with illusions of a glare
Feeling that life is unfair
We get hurt when we care
Even if our feelings we don’t share
There are those who will dare
To be one with the air
Until we notice is just a flare

We have to ask, can it be?
Were we too blind to see?
Maybe it wasn’t meant for me
We have to think “thankfully”
That we only bit from the forbidden tree
If we ate, it could have started a spree
Of pain and hate, we’d never be free
With emptiness deeper than the sea
So stop thinking there could’ve been a “we”
Because what never was, will never be

©Nixon Callejas
HASTOBENIXON™

Beauty

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Beauty can be found in an unexpected place
Can leave a spell with an undetected trace
Can give a feeling that isn’t erasable
Beauty that can’t be replaceable
If one looks hard enough, one will find
Beauty that gives a love that’s blind
Can go far and beyond across borders
Can turn two strangers into lovers
Beauty tells a story that’s untold
If love permits, then that is what we’ll hold
Beauty takes away the pain and sorrow
Can leave you anxious for a better tomorrow
Can give you a new and different place
Beauty is difficult, but worth the chase…

©Nixon Callejas
HASTOBENIXON™

Home

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Home sweet home
During winter keeps me warm
During summer keeps me fresh
Love home like is my own flesh
Home, not a house
Can be my spouse
Does not have walls
Never falls
After struggles, it still stands
Can be my friends
Use it whenever I’m in need
Takes care of me
Even when I bleed
Not a symbol of greed

Home is always with me
I love home, it sets me free
Mi casa es Tu casa
Respect mi raza.
Home is in the heart of P7
Home will go with me to heaven
You can’t buy my home
Its priceless, its been shown.
Never lets me down, keeps beating
Never stops believing
Keeps me breathing
Open to see the beauties, no sealing
It goes where I go, never stay alone
Love my home sweet home

©Nixon Callejas
HASTOBENIXON™